8.19.09 – Day 44 – DAY 1 JUICE FEAST – 181.8 lbs!!

Wow. Nothing much has changed since the last entry, which would be completely devastating if I wasn’t obsessed with giving this everything that I’ve got to try and make it work! Today is (I think) Day 1 of the juice feast. I started this entire process 43 days ago. I’ve lost no weight, and may have gained some, and feel exhausted completely. I can see a major difference in my skin, and in my overall state – meaning that I feel less neurotic most days than I did, but this time, I am definitely going through a massive, massive detox. I think that my body just got that much more toxic since last year. So far today the juice feast isn’t horrible, but I have to definitely substitute some more juices that aren’t as intense as the now three that I’ve had today. I’ve been focusing mainly on the greens, which is what they tell you to do. Also, have now had a total of 3 colonics, which is good, but I was told that I won’t see a real difference until after 15 (by the first colonic lady) because I’m so toxic. The other woman (2nd colonic person – Annette) said that it is going to take me 2 years to heal my body. The choice is mine – I give up or I keep going. Today, I’m still in 1000%. I know the options. Just would love to drop weight like every other person that I hear about, and have some energy. I could literally fall asleep right now. Truthfully, I have had serious bouts of energy during this process – just not in the moment. Have been running to the bathroom the entire day today – so there is some serious cleansing going on. Just have to stay focused, and remember why I’m doing this. The pain in my body is not going to let me forget. Still taking meds occasionally if I have to. Considering the amount of crud that I was throwing into this body before, I think that’s pretty good. I CAN DO THIS!!!!!!!!

1 quart water w/lemon
1 quart juice – spinach, celery, ginger, garlic, parsley, carrot
Shot wheatgrass
Dropper Marine Phytoplankton
1 cup Pau D’Arco tea w/stevia
1 quart green juice – celery, spinach, cucumber, kale, parsley, apple, carrot, ginger
1 tbl bee pollen
1 quart green juice – celery, spinach, cucumber, kale, parsley, apple, carrot, ginger
1 quart juice – spinach, strawberry, apple – strange, but ok
2 cups coconut water w/Greener Grasses

Supplements:

¾ tsp MSM
2 Fred Bisci’s digestive enzymes
2 Fred Bisci’s probiotics
1 silica
2 Kelp
1 Multi
1 B-Complex
1000 – Ester C
1000 - D