9.28.09 – Day 84 Raw - DAY 41 JUICE FEAST!!!

1 quart water w/lemon
1 cup yerba mate w/stevia
1 quart veggie juice – chard, spinach, beet greens, dandelion greens, collards, kale,
romaine, celery, cucumber, beets, ginger, garlic, carrots, apples
2 cups watermelon juice
1 quart veggie juice - chard, spinach, beet greens, dandelion greens, collards, kale,
romaine, celery, cucumber, beets, ginger, garlic, carrots, apples
1 quart water
1 cup yerba mate w/stevia
3 cups coconut water w/1 ½ tbl Greener Grasses
1 ½ cups watermelon juice
1/2 quart veggie juice - chard, spinach, beet greens, dandelion greens, collards, kale,
romaine, celery, cucumber, beets, ginger, garlic, carrots, apples

Supplements:

2 tbl MSM
6 Vitalzym
2 Vita-Stim
2 Kelp
30 drops Chanca Piedra
Probiotic
Several handfuls chlorella tablets
1 silica
7-8 tbl raw honey – wow!

9.29.09 – Day 85 Raw - DAY 42 JUICE FEAST!!!

Hands-down the hardest week that I have had in a really intensely long time. Just massive (again) emotions, flying every which way, and it’s like I have absolutely no control over them at all. Anger, fear, loneliness, panic, brief moments of euphoria and bliss, and then right back in the “darkness” again. This morning I was so dizzy that I was holding onto things to walk. That passed right after 1:00 (finally). I think it had a lot to do with the meditation I’ve been doing and maybe not so much with the diet – other than the fact that I have got literally no vices blocking me right now from all of these different bodies – physical, mental, emotional, spiritual. What a flippin’ rollercoaster this has been. I had to fight hard to stick with the juice feast yesterday – really hard. It just all started to seem totally not worth it, and I was definitely getting lost in the trees with no clue of the forest. Then I spent a few minutes on the juicefeasting.com website (lifesaver) and watched one YouTube video of TheRawFoodWorld TV show, and totally came-to, remembering why I’m doing this. I knew that it wouldn’t be easy. I was warned often, even in-person by Philip McCluskey (who did 100 days) that a lot of people stop because of the emotions that are released. I mean, there’s a reason I was so sick. Feeling was not an option. Food, cigarettes, drugs (legal and illegal), alcohol (at one point) – all of that was what I did to hide away inside of this physical shell. The problem is that it was blocking me from who I truly want to be and what I honestly believe. Getting back to that “original” state is no easy feat, or I would have done it years ago. A lot of people would do it, right? So all in again – dizziness and nausea have passed. Sort of sticking to myself because I do not trust what I will do or say right now – it’s crazy!!! And remembering (believing) that this is all worth it.

1 quart water w/lemon
1 cup yerba mate w/stevia
1 quart veggie juice – chard, spinach, beet greens, dandelion greens, collards, kale,
romaine, celery, cucumber, beets, ginger, garlic, carrots, apples
1 tbl hemp oil
1 quart watermelon juice
1 cup coconut water w/Greener Grasses
2 cups veggie juice - chard, spinach, beet greens, dandelion greens, collards, kale,
romaine, celery, cucumber, beets, ginger, garlic, carrots, apples
3 cups watermelon juice
3 cups fruit juice – apple, grapes, blueberries, strawberries, blackberries, pineapple – yummo!!!
7-8 tbl raw honey – too much!!!
3 cups veggie juice - chard, spinach, beet greens, dandelion greens, collards, kale,
romaine, celery, cucumber, beets, ginger, garlic, carrots, apples


Supplements:

2 tbl MSM
6 Vitalzym
2 Vita-Stim
2 Kelp
30 drops Chanca Piedra
Probiotic
2 handfuls chlorella tablets